GRATITUDE

I spend so much time writing about all the negative emotions and focusing on hardships that I deal with, so...I would like to dedicate an entry to positivity and progress. Hopefully each day I can come up with something inspiring, whether it is a step I've made towards recovery, a beautifully artistic love flowing poem,… Continue reading GRATITUDE

Purge

I've been purging. I haven't done this in a very long time. I feel lethargic, confused about the world, distrusting and very absent minded. The purging has gotten to the point that it has replaced my self harm with this demon that is slicing pieces of the inside of my throat off . It feels… Continue reading Purge

Close but no Cigar

Photo by Irina Iriser on Pexels.com Sit at the lake and write. Writing is the only thing that makes sense anymore. I can't tell anyone how I feel because they don't either care or really listen and if they are listening they try to make you feel better and it is good intentions on their… Continue reading Close but no Cigar

My Heart’s Door

Searching for the perfect words, keep coming up short. You are my perfect nerd in a world I tend to distort. The ringing in my ears the sweat pouring from my pores a beating heart bleeds a thousand tears each time you come knocking on its door. "I'll love you for a thousand years and… Continue reading My Heart’s Door

Self Harm you didnt know was Self Harm

Photo by it's me neosiam on Pexels.com I realize I hurt myself over and over again. It is literally SOMETHING every day to help me either pass out and forget the world or get up and going and have fun. I cant seem to find the correct balance in life or at least I cant… Continue reading Self Harm you didnt know was Self Harm